"BARBADOS .. ." A CONVERSATION WITH DIVA ALEXANDER 25

 far as I'm concerned, I still have shackles on my hands. So until-it
 can't be any other way.
 When it is finished, lam going public. Isaw the bitch three weeks ago.
 He saw me. He almost shit his pants. The way I felt there, I just felt
 like ... and when he saw me and I walked straight towards him and
 just swerve off like that. He don't know how I felt about him at that
 point. I could have done something to him. I know that I would have
 been incarcerated, but just to satisfy my thing, just fuck him up. It's so
 easy to be violent. So easy. Let him fall on his own ways. Justice is
 very important in my book and, I mean, I'm not a lawyer or anything,
 but in whatever way I can assist or help people to free themselves
 mentally, I will do it.
 I was the Investigator [Barbadian tabloid newspaper] cover girl. Years
 ago, about 1994, I was paid $1000.00 for the cover. All the real girls
 were paid $100.00 and I got $1000.00. That paper sold out within
 hours. 'Cause when I went to get one, they were all sold out. Something
 got to be working for me. I had on a black suit and a wig. I wanted to
 be as covert a possible. Ihad a short wig on like Naomi Campbell and
 I had some blacksome silk and everybody loved it.
 I had this reverend, that's a woman, called Lucille Baird. She came up
 to me in Abed's one day, a store in town: "You shouldn't have done
 that You have made God angry." If she could have hit me, she would
 have hit me that day and I would have floored her. But that same week
 that I was on the cover, a guy had raped an eight year old and threw her
 down the well.
 I said, "Listen to me. You know nothing about me. You are out of place
 to be in my face and telling me what I should be doing. Furthermore,
 you don't know who I am inside and now. I am on the cover of this
 paper and yet there is a guy who kill and rape a eight year old. What do
you have to say about that?" She had nothing to say about that. But she
coming at me. What I do will affect me and nobody else but me, so you
step off Mind you, a woman who was with her pointed me out to her
And she came over to me huffing and puffing 'cause she had now been
ordained as a priest. I said, 'you need to step back or I will slap you
down. "She don't know. Simple, simple, simple. It was uncalled for.
That's why I don't go to church any more too. I was going to church
and I was going to be baptized right on this very beach and the reverend
refused to baptize me. Refused. I had confirmation class for eight
weeks. He could have told to me that he could not baptize me because,
because, because, because, right? All he kept saying was hair. I had
my hair down to here. [indicates waist] I cut it now. It's a big afro. But
my hair was like down to here.