SUSAN GRAy. 109

house, or parents, or brethren, or wife, or chil-
dren, for the kingdom of God’s sake, who shall
not receive manifold more in this present time,
and in the world to come life everlasting. (Luke
xviii, 29, 30.) And I said to them, while I
wiped away my tears, “I beseech you, suffer
me to gu, for a few moments only, to my owa
room, that I may, when alone, think of ali that
you have said to me, and consider well what I
ought to do: for indeed,” I said, “I am per-
plexed and bewildered, and very greatly dis-
tressed.”

They were both, at first, unwilling to let me
go: nay, my mistress absolutely told me, that
I should not go out of her sight, till 1 went
with the Captaia. Upon which, I almost gave
myself up as lost, and was in such an agony of
grief, that the Captain said, he could not deny
me this little favour.

He no sooner let my hands go, than I darted
from him like an arrow from a bow, and, run-
ning up stairs, shut the door of my own little
room after me. Now the window of my room
was so small, that I should have thought it im-
possible at any other time to have got through
it; but I was new resolved, be the consequence
what it would, to make the trial, particularly
after what my mistress had said.

As soon as I was alone, I spread a handker-
chief upon the bed; and, having placed on it
my Bible and Prayer-book, and what little
linen I could hastily get together, I tied up the
corners of the handkerchief, and threw it from
the window into the garden. The dim light,

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